I don't want to have false humility or pride. What I'm trying to say is if you are reading my blog you are getting a snippet of our life. It's a good life, don't get me wrong. I have two great little boys and a husband who loves and provides for us. However, we all have our own struggles and areas that we need Christ to come in and change. Life is hard and being a Christian isn't easy. During church our Pastor talked about sin and it was refreshing. He said there are "no good people" meaning we all have sinful hearts.
Lately, I have been really struggling with: Belief or really Unbelief. For example these questions:
1) Why does my aunt (one of the most if not THE most Godly woman I know) have cancer? 2) Why did she have to get a fever on top of that cancer?
3) Why does a little boy at church have to have open heart surgery?
4) Why is Jonathan doing physical therapy and occupational therapy at 3 months old?
These are some big questions for me. I do believe God is good and He is Lord! I'm still praying for God to heal my aunt, the little boy at church and Jonathan.
What I'm trying to say is I'm blogging to record our good memories, but I'm not trying to hide our faults and portray a false sense of a perfect life.
To my sons, I hope one day you read this blog and think back on the fun times and give God the glory. Don't dwell on your sin, but ask for forgiveness and ask God to change your heart. Remember, laws don't change a person, God does.
Growing up (even now if I'm honest) I loved rules! They made me feel good and safe, but Thompson and Jonathan they didn't change your momma's heart. Only God can do that and I pray every day He changes my heart and I pray that you run to the cross and beg Jesus to change your heart because that above everything else is what matters. Your daddy and I want you to know the love of your heavenly Father and look to Him to change you! Jesus died on the cross to save our sins, so we can spend eternity with him. And that, precious ones, is something I do believe.
